I had planned on going to church this morning, but my body didn't feel like waking up until early afternoon. whoops. The day was uneventful until around 5PM, when I went to Shoe Carnival to buy some boots for Utah (I'm going to the Sundance film festival on the 20th). An old boyfriend of mine, Brock, works at Shoe Carnival. After running into him, we decided to meet up at 8 to grab something to eat. It was so nice to spend time with an old friend!
It's funny how easy it is for me to get stuck viewing life through my present lens (thinking mainly of academics, career prospects, sorority obligations, and the friends I currently keep). Spending time with Brock was refreshing because it reminded me of the (unjaded) way I used to see things.. the whole world was one big sentimental experience where every day seemed to have a unique meaning. I miss how new it all was. I'm so disenchanted by my current situation. My classes are hard and tedious, and very few things seem to excite me anymore. I try to assure myself that it's just a phase ( a very long phase)... but is it? Am I permanently stuck in a state of indifference?
For me, my emotions are very important. Some people seem able to do what they do regardless of their emotional state.. but if I'm not happy (almost to the point of hyper-enthusiasm), I shut down. Lord, please reboot me!
Shine on,
Kate
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